Do Utility Players Turn Into Exhausted Underperforming Adults?

No?... just me?

I grew up as a proud utility player. While most pitchers only focused on pitching, I prided myself on being able to slap hit, be one of the fastest players on the team, and play outfield in addition to pitching. I didn’t realize back then that I found my worth in being a multifaceted asset to the team, so much so that I felt less than if I was only contributing to my team in one way. This may have come from me thinking I had to be undeniable; I had this foundation-less belief that if there were any way someone could discredit me, they would, so I had to be undeniable in every possible way. Not gonna lie, this belief system drove me to greatness but at the expense of my overall peace and self-worth outside of my performance. I will go out on a limb and say that most great athletes suffer from this thinking and oftentimes enter into life after sports the way I did… 

Exhausted. 

I find myself trying to be a jack of all trades AND a master of all of them because God forbid I only do one thing at a time. How will the world see my worth, then? 

I entered into adulthood thinking "I must have a corporate job, a retail job, and teach lessons on the side." I hopped out of corporate America, "no worries; now I must write, speak, coach, AND do events. I HAVE TO DO IT ALLLL AND AT THE SAME TIME!! cue maniacal laughter 

Now, however, I’m a mom of two, almost three, girls, and I’m tired physically and emotionally. I’m tired of finding my worth in how much I can do. I realize I can be good at many things but doing all of the things keeps me from being exceptional at anything. Not to mention it cripples me from doing anything consistently. As an athlete, I think that is what exhausts me the most. I’ve spent most of my life being excellent at my sport, but now I feel mediocre at the things I’m doing, or not doing, in life. (this doesn’t include motherhood and my relationships) 

So when do I feel I’m excelling or operating in my purpose?

Right now, talking… well, writing to you. I majored in English, and I’ve written two books. Now I’ve spun my wheels long enough about how to grow Sportswomen. I believe it’s through communicating consistently with you all through writing. Especially now, as I’m nearing my due date for baby girl #3. 

You know how you know I’m a writer because that was a very long-winded way to say, “I’m chilling on events as I grow my family but want to stay connected to get hype about fun articles and newsletters.” If you’ve read this far, you may have seen some things you can address within yourself. I hope you realize you can be exceptional at one thing and worthy of everything. 

Chat soon, 

Morgan